it’s disastrous how hopeless my romantic life has been. Not that there aren’t interesting stories – believe me, there are a shit ton of intriguing stuff to spill (especially so when you’re single, I guess; because I can fabricate meaning from the smallest things and I notice all the small little things because I’m paranoid. Paranoid in the sense that I’m craving the feeling of companionship, the feeling of being wanted and needed by someone that every little hint at that possibility makes me super-sensitive. Making a mountain out of a molehill sort of sentiment, you know?)… but it’s the fact that they’re exactly that – stories, and nothing more – that depresses me. I’d like to turn these stories of “what could have been” into memories of “what has been”; these “shoulda woulda coulda” regrets into traces of mistakes avoided.
Monthly Archives: January 2012
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After last semester ended, I had an ongoing list of LGBTQ films to watch. That list is growing by the day, but I’ve managed to cross some off the list. Originally I wanted to write a little paragraph of my first impressions of these movies, but after years of training and schooling, I still can’t come up with constructive responses to pieces of art work I see off the bat (plus that takes too long). I let things stew, and if they stick with me that means it’s worth mentioning or revisiting.
Upon stewing, I’m going to summarize the impressions I have after seeing each film in one sentence:
Kyss Mig: Lesbian romance seems sudden without enough build-up; but sexy and tender moments in the bedroom.
The Kids Are All Right: Much more mellow ‘everything’ (lesbian parents’ relationship, characters, etc) than I thought.
Bloomington: Nothing too spectacular; but good for them for not having a Hollywood ending (library seduction scene was really hot).
Chloe: I love how a good lesbian drama stirs up a seemingly perfect family; not to mention the two women were stunning!
Crazy, Stupid, Love: okay, it’s not really a LGBTQ film… but one of the best romance films ever made, and Ryan Gosling is in it! There’s no way you wouldn’t love this film.
Now onto more film adventures!
2012
Okay, so the reason I didn’t do a year-end post was that I didn’t really have anything insightful to say. I wanted to write a post about my ‘queer 2011’ and point out the queer-ish things I did… like:
- dancing with hundreds of lezzies at the pride parade after party (at Gossip)
- meeting new queer friends
- going to three Low Spin concerts
- meeting Leisha Hailey and Camila Grey
- going to two Uh Huh Her concerts
- crushing on a director I worked with
- ‘friending’ Tucky Williams on facebook
- attending Vancouver Queer Film Festival (for the first time!)
- taking my first gender studies and women’s studies class (read my post about it)
- watching/studying queer films in detail
- attending my first drag king show
- dressing up in drag & binding my boobs
- finish watching The L Word (finally!)
But I thought it would be too much work… wait, that wasn’t so hard! In chronological order, too! Guess there wasn’t as many highlights as I thought there was… I also started going to more gay clubs, which wasn’t really date-specific.
Overall, it was a year of re-discovering my gender and sexuality. I think I still have a long way to go, but 2012 is off to a much better start than 2011! 😀
Shortbus
The second movie I watched on Dec. 22nd (after Bound) was Shortbus. I’ve heard about the film long ago, right when it came out, about its explicit sex scenes that were almost pornographic (which, undoubtedly, spurred a whole debate on “what is pornographic”). This is a great piece to fuck with your mind. The psychology of the characters, their morals, how they deal and face their desires and problems are all issues undermining the entire plot.
There was also a lot and a lot of nakedness… which just goes to show that it’s hard to find a romance or LGBTQ film without sex.
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