My mind is a mess. Half of me isn’t here, really. It’s all the way in South-east Europe, at a little suburban city called Subotica, with my girlfriend. My head’s gone from me. I’m in front of the computer all day, watching this little software called Skype that will bring her image and voice to me. I jump at the sound of every little alert, and I feel crazy to be so vulnerable. Not being able to be next to the one person I wish to hold makes me so sad. I avoid listening to music that will make me think of her, because I’m afraid once I start crying I won’t be able to stop. My heart feels like it’s going to explode inside my chest…
I’ve just come back from my six-month employment with a cruise company. I was on board what is billed “The Largest Cruise Ship in Asia”, but the job isn’t as glorious as it sounds. Sure, I got to travel across the world (literally – we crossed the Atlantic Ocean from NA to Europe), I got to see the pyramids and the Sphnix, and I even got a relationship out of my contract – there are still many aspects of my work that I did not enjoy at all (as with all of the jobs in the World, I guess).
Now, after a week in Vancouver, I’m trying to find my old groove back. Scheduling work, rehearsals, and hang-outs with friends all seem like old routine. But I wake up every day looking at my 21″ screen, talking to my girlfriend, bawling my eyes out over the fact that she’s half a world away; and I can’t bring myself to do much of anything else… Nothing besides spending time with her!
Where's My Dime? 